I still don't understand what happened to my comments on here. They just disappeared one day and failed to return. Someday, maybe next week, I will find time to play around with it and get a new comments provider. It's just beyond my patience right now. The comments dealie that I DID install seems to have turned everyone off and no one uses it. So, I do check my notes and find people there.

Whatever. It does not matter.

What DOES matter in my little world right now is that my copier is jamming continually. It started late in the afternoon, right when Bossy Man threw some letters at me. I babied the stupid thing along, doing what it said: Open THIS and open THAT and clear out any paper that has jammed and I was able to continue, albeit with much frustration and anger. Now, however, it refused to do anything but re-jam when I clear everything out. So, a call was made to the Office Shop and I am hoping they come out early this morning to fix it because I still have at least two letters sitting in queue and more files that came in this morning that need printing.

So, I am stuck for now. I can type up the letters but, with nowhere for them to print, I will end up with a ton of files open until the copier dude shows.

Yeah. If THAT'S the worse thing in my life, then it's all good, right???

Oh, speaking of icky things, I got, in the mail yesterday, a notice from the bank. It was for the ex's account. Being curious and since HE didn't bother to change the address on his bank account yet (what a dufus!!) I opened it.

It was a notice of a wire transfer from his account to, guess where? The girl he was dancing with at Jenner's wedding. The girl that HE invited to be his "date" that day even though I was told I could not invite any of MY friends. What a hypocrite.

Anyway, so why is he sending her money? Dave thought that maybe it was a deposit for rent. I have a feeling he is moving in with her. If that is the case, then I wish HER tons of luck with that one.

Am I anxious about it? No. Am I sad about it? No. And I upset about it? No. Am I jealous? A definite NO.

Whatever. I am really glad he is moving on and hopefully soon will be moving out of this town.

After work, I went to the library to pick up a book waiting for me, and then to the liquor store for more wine. Then to get some smokes. Then Dave called me and asked where I was. I was already home and he was heading home, himself, so it was arranged that I would go over and visit. Which I did.

We just sat around and talked about stuff. Nothing important. Last night was pretty much a non-stellar evening. Nothing exciting. Oh, I did get to see a DVD of pictures that his sister got together for his parents' 50 wedding anniversary. It was made in 2004, so there were lots of pictures of Dave growing up and pictures of his kids and pictures of his wedding. I admit THAT made me a bit uncomfortable and then I had a dream about his ex wife coming over and telling me about all the stuff that I need to take over now that I am the new woman in his life. Put me in a really strange mood this morning and I am trying to shake that off. His dog was even in the dream, and he was the only one that was non-judgmental. I guess I am feeling some guilt that I am the new person in his life, even though I had nothing to do with his marriage breaking up. Just that good, old fashioned Catholic guilt, I guess. I think I feel that because I know that SHE thinks I broke up her marriage, even though she almost didn't even move to this town with him because they were on the verge of separating. So, how can she blame me now? They were clearly on the frizt when I came into the picture. All I did was hang out with Dave and his friends around the bonfire a few times, but immediately I was the cause for his marriage breaking up. Just to illustrate it further, I didn't even KNOW that they were having issues until about a week before she moved out. And I didn't even know she moved out until after the fact. So, my conscience is clear. But, I still feel guilt. Maybe Dave would have gone back to her if we didn't become closer and start seeing each other. I don't know. It's just the mood I am in right now.

Unfortunately, when I see pictures of his ex with his family at Christmas time or at their wedding, I feel so inadequate. Like I will NEVER fit in with his family. I see pictures of his mother and I think that she is so COLD and unwelcoming. Dave tells me she is like that with everyone, but I still am having a hard time with it. I guess all I can do is be myself and be friendly and win people over. I know I can win over his siblings. It's his mom that is gonna be a tough nut to crack. Whatever. She probably blames ME for Dave not going to his mom's birthday party last weekend. That was all HIM. I was not going to go anyway.

Whatever. I am just in a mood right now. When you hook up with someone, you really are getting his whole family, too.

Thank God I get along great with his kids. They all like me and have had nothing but good things to say about me to Dave. They all have said that I am just what he needs and that we fit together great.

So, whatever. Again, it's the mood caused by the damn picture show last night and the dream on top of it all.

So, this morning, I went over for coffee with Dave and we talked a bit. He said that neither of us are going to get married again. I told him that was bullshit, that I KNOW we are going to get married if we can get through some of the bullshit. He said he knew it, too. But there is NO hurry. Especially since I really need to get rid of one husband, first!! LOL

We talked about that we are going to move in together for sure, eventually. And again, it's all dependent on whether we can get through a few issues first.

Anyway, so that's what's going on here. Just waiting for the copier dude to show up. I am hoping he will be here really soon because I hate being held hostage by a stupid MACHINE!!!! I can't do a thing. No faxing, no coping, no scanning, no printing, no nothing. It's funny how one machine can be such a HUGE part of my day and when it's down, so am I.

Okay. Gonna type up some letters anyway, and hope the dude shows up soon.

Have a happy Nappy Day. I need a nap!!!

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